Saan ka ba Aabutin??

Wake up in the middle of the night…. Day off pero eto…feeling ko mag duduty ng 2am in the morning shift. Very adjusted na sa BPO noh…addict lang….since d naman ako pupunta ng shift..( as if may pupuntahan pang shift)…eto nanood ng Oshopping since abs-cbn lang naman channel sa bahay..:) ng timpla ng coffee…bored parin. Kay lumabas ako ng bahay ng igib ng tubig at ng brush ng sahig sa kusina.. worth it dba??? Pero kapagod pala lalo na pag wala kang  brush na mahaba yung handle..gamit mung brush ung maliit, hindi tootbrush ha…sobrang liit non.. baka next year pa ako matapos nun… haixt! kaya ni-rush ko nalang at pagkatapoz humingga nah…  “nakakapapagod pala, especially if you don’t have the right tool in doing something, as if you don’t do it right., even your goal is just simple to make it better or beautiful,” apparently hindi parin ako makatulog.. addict na talaga sa graveyardshift.. kaya pati sa bahay graveyard ako gumagawa ng paglilinis….

So since d ako makatulog magshashare ako ng isang weird thing about me… hahha… oo.. sa nakakakilala sakin… SIRA ulo daw ako… sabi ko naman only great minds can understand me… Normal minds finds me crazy… parang Einstien lang ang peg…. Anyway….  Kasi marami rin naman nagtatanong nito sakin… di ko alam pero tuwing tinatanung tuh sakin binabalik ko naman a sarili ko… at tinananung ko rin naman sya…pero di nya rin ako sinasagot ng totoo yung sinasagot kasi ni sarili ko puro fictional na tao.. someone that really don’t exist.. hahahha. So the question goes this way… “who is your crush? Ultimate crush? Crushed?”

Unang sagot ni sarili ko… JOSE Rizal.. hahhaha.. uy si Jose rizal di fiction yung ha… but he exist a hundred years ago…buhay pa kaya sya?? Syemre patay.. sa luneta binaril diba??? Si rizal kasi ay RESPETO sa kapwa.. Marunong umunawa at yung bang uunahin yung kapakanan ng iba bago sya.. (hero nga dba)?  Second.. Edward of twilight…. Vampire? Di naman yun… yung character niya deleting of pagiging vampire nya… is caring (parang rizal din , uunahin yung kapakanan ni Bella bago sya..)… because that’s one trait that most woman wants , someone who cares for them as if they are a delicate glass that can easily be broken..at totoo yun. We women are easily broke. MARUPOK. Pero! L**** mga bwisit na Martian(MEN) mas marupok daw? Lalo na sa kaakit akit na MAIS… kaya tumutuka..! anyway.. this is isn’t about men…thought I am certified Feminist… di naman ako Anti-men.. sa dami kung kaibigang lalaki na wala naman kwenta halos lahat… laro dito- laro doon… so 100 lalaking kilala ko 2 lang ang matino… yung isa kalahati pa ng matinu kasi aral daw muna sya… at ang iba bakla na so di are not counted….

Okay… JOSe RIZAl, Edward… and recently dahil sa pagkacurious ko sa immortal man… I watched #apromiseofforever… helo sa addict din dyan… sa bashers tumahimik ka nalang… okey??? RESPETO sa mga likers…RESPETO… Una-unang pondasyon po yan sa kahit anung klaseng relasyon… pero minsan Misinterpreted (how? E.g. sa anak at magulang. Si anak ng plot ng side nya why it happens, kunwari may kasalanan, ngayon nagsalita, si magulang then dahil nagsalita si anak,sabi ni magulang “sasagot sagot kna ngayon? Anung pinagmamalaki mu? Ha? Walang modo, walang RESPETO???”, huh? Walang respeto kahit yung pagsasalita ni anak eh magkanda utal utal at sobrang liit pa ng boses, gusto lang ni anak marining yung side nya?) kaya sa mga magulang dyan pakingaan nyo po anak nyu.. at sana kahit alam nyong mali sya.. iparamdam nyu parin na mahal nyo sya.. dahil maraming bata iniisip na di sila mahal ng magulang nila dahil di to nakikiknig sa kanila… that’s why napapariwala po maga nak natin… try to think of it.. You have free communication in the house, itwould bea betterplace to live in…

Okey going back.. (ang daming topic..!) .. if you know how to respect you can be trusted.. tama?  If you can be trusted you are lovable…  LOVABLE…

Okey! So oo na nga humangga po ako sa character na , Nicholas Barrientos…yun lang ha.. hindi si Lorenzo Espinosa, o si Emil Mendoza. So why Nicholas Barrientos,  experiensyado kasi…interms po sa life (in 150 years of existence, syempre).. he is wise, pero again kahit gano katagal mu na sa mundo pagdating sa pag ibig… TANGA! Yun nga eh…malala sya…pero aside that… he knows how to manage everthing, and he is mayaman, maalaga,mabait, marespeto at cool lang, and may concern sa kapwa.. a kind of person na di mo makikita sa normal na lalaki kasi po lalaki po ngayon sa bahay lang po..wlang ginagawa kahit kanda kuba kuba na misis nila sa katatatrabaho yung iba lasinggero at puro sa bisyo.. walang modo!kaka hiya! sila yung may lakas at kakyahan na khit pag uwi sa bahay ay nagagawang kapit lang sa jeep ay yun! Kaming mga babae ang nakikipag agawan,at nakikipagsiksikan sa magulong mundo. Tayung mga babae pagdating nag bahay magluluto, papakainin mga bata, tapoz  maglalaba, mamalantsa,at kung anu- anu pang Gawain sa bahay….. may mga tao lang talaga na makapal ang mukha.. at  halos sila ay lalaki po…  pag lumabas ng bahay naman at nagtrabaho, kunting sahod palang ngmamalaki na.. cla na daw ang bumubuhay sa pamilya nila without even thinking of “SAAN AABOT ANG 2,000 mu sa isang buwan???”, minsan pa mangbababae pa.

Sa lahat ng bagay po walang malaki o maliit.. walang sapat o sobra…walang tama o mali… dahil saan ka man dyan sa dalawa  pag di  po nailalagay sa dapat na kalagyan nito gulo ang nangyayari.. malaki man yan o maliit kung may Respeto at pag uunawaan sa bawat isa sa loob ng isang bahay. Sobra pa po yan sa mansion… Masaya na buhay… wala akong hilig sa karangyaan. Pero sa buhay na toh.. tama pera ang nagpapaikot… Pera ang importante… pero kahit anung hamon meron ako sa buhay ko at kahit na realized ko na nasa lahat ng bagay, dito samundo pera ang importante… mas importante parin sakin ang oras na maibibigay ko at saya sa mahalaga sa akin.. sa mga anak ko… kasi yung pera lilipas din yan… pero alam ko ang bawat nakasama ko  sa paglalakbay ko sa buhay na toh… we have good memories to share….

Ano bayan? Ano ba talaga topic ko dito…ang dami sa ulo ko kasi..so sa ng waste ng time to read  thank you. Thanks for sharing the time with me… and VON Boyage! Sa buhay..!!! bitin noh… pero sasusunod nlang ulit…

Sleepy na ako… nights… 

PiSo at its Best😅

This is a late post... Happened on April 7 (Friday). 😊

It started so early. I woke up that morning feeling so excited for the Final Defense of my beloved 3rd year students. ❤️

I got ready and skipped breakfast because I wanted to be at school early so I could print my grade sheets and submit them to the Registrar's Office. I arrived at school at around 7:00 AM. Even though it was raining (and yes, nabasa gid ko kay nag-motor lang ko 😅), I still made it.

When I reached the Administration Office, Anak Andy and Bae Jojo were already heading home to get ready for the Final Defense. I then went to our faculty office and managed to finish my grade sheets just before 8:00 AM. That's when I realized the rain hadn't stopped yet, and most of the researchers were still nowhere to be found.

So... tick-tock... tick-tock...

While waiting, I started encoding the grading sheets for the BSIT Final Defense. One by one, the researchers arrived—first Andy, then Evangeline. I later found out they still hadn't finished printing their manuscripts, except for Vange, who was simply waiting for her partner to arrive.

So... more waiting.

Due to the public demand of my existence. 😂 I had to personally submit some documents in Roxas City because they were scheduled and couldn't be entrusted to someone else. I informed Ma'am Sha and the rest of the panel that I needed to leave for a while and that we would resume at 1:00 PM.

Off I went.

I waited for almost 20 minutes before finally riding a public utility van. Along Magsaysay, my best friend's mom also boarded the van. Since we're very close, I immediately blurted out,

"Baw, Tita! Upod naman kita? Damu gid kita guro estoryahan ay!"

She replied,

"Ay abaw! An, ara ikaw da? Daw amo gid guro!"

We both laughed.

She sat beside me, and our conversation lasted all the way to Roxas City. We mostly talked about her nephew—our student. ❤️

Indeed, God is good because Tita even paid for my fare! 😅

Thanks, Tita! Sa uulitin! From the van to the jeepney... huya-huya man ko, pero salamat gid ya. Hehehe.

We parted ways when I got off at CapSU Main, the nearest drop-off point to my destination—DBP.

At DBP, I was asked to provide another photocopy of my ID. So I went out to look for a photocopy shop.

Here's the funny part...

I only needed one photocopy, which cost ₱1.

Guess what?

Wala ko piso. 😂

With my huge bag, I couldn't find a single peso! Ginhalungkat ko na halos tanan nga unod sang bag ko tungod lang sa piso. I even thought of paying with a ₱500 bill, but seriously... for ₱1? 😂

I didn't give up.

After turning my bag upside down, I finally found one lonely peso.

"Huy abaw! Muna gid ko ya kayaman!" 🤣

Finally, I submitted all the requirements.

Now I had to head back to Pilar for the defense. Then I remembered my baby boy had no milk left at home, so I stopped by the grocery to buy milk, some food for the kids and me, and of course... coffee for my dear Mother Earth. ☕

As I walked out of the grocery, I realized I still hadn't accomplished my main goal in the city. But somehow, everything became brighter because...

The jeepney driver was cute. 🤭😂

Ay! Biglang naging maaliwalas ang mundo ko.

Ambot kung gwapo gid siya, pero nami gid ya iya sunggad. 😂

So... plus points for the day!

I finally arrived back in Pilar at exactly 1:00 PM.

And then the defense started...

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...

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Only to realize...

IT WASN'T THE FINAL DEFENSE.

It was only the PRE-ORAL DEFENSE. 🤦‍♀️🤣

See you again this November 2018! 😂🎉

No More Fairytales

People say physical attraction comes first before anything else.

I used to want to prove the world wrong. I wanted to believe that, in some cases, true love really does exist.

Will I ever be able to prove it? Maybe. Maybe not.

And honestly, if I fail, that's okay. Failure teaches us. Learning gives us wisdom.

I've reached a point where I'm ready to be happy, even if I'm alone.

I no longer expect anyone to stay. Although I was once confused by the time, effort, and attention someone gave me, I've learned to simply let it go.

There was this man...

Someone I used to spend time with.

He was funny, witty, creative, and talented. I had known him for years, but I never imagined we'd become that close.

Then one day, he finally confessed how he really felt.

Ironically, all I could do was laugh.

Because it seemed that every man who came into my life wanted the same thing—to score.

Can you really blame me for not believing anymore?

Can you blame me for doubting words that once became the reason behind my broken heart and shattered dreams?

Whether the truth was kept secret or spoken aloud, the ending always felt the same.

It hurt.

It hurt enough that I never wanted to go through it again.

And then there was you.

With you, I never knew what was real and what was another lie.

Because, honestly, I found you to be dishonest.

So I asked myself...

What would I really gain from loving you?

Yes, you're handsome.

You're talented.

You made me laugh.

You listened to me.

You talked to me.

And maybe... I felt the same way you said you felt about me.

But someone else had done all of those things before.

None of those things could feed me.

Once upon a time, I believed that love could conquer everything.

I was wrong.

Love alone wasn't enough to build the life I dreamed of.

Reality taught me that feelings without commitment are just empty promises.

Maybe not every man is the same.

Maybe there are still those willing to sacrifice, to stay, and to choose love despite the risks.

But my experiences taught me that fear often speaks louder than love.

Sometimes, what we mistake for love is nothing more than desire.

And that's the hardest lesson I've ever had to learn.

I'm sorry.

Not because I stopped believing in fairy tales...

But because life taught me to believe in actions more than words.