IMPORTANCE of a PESO

 this is a late post:: happened April 7, friday


it started so early, I woke up in the morning feeling so excited for the "final defense" of my beloved 3rd year... so I got ready... didn't take breakfast coz i wanted to 
be at school early so i could print up my gradesheets to be pass at the registrar's office. so i got to school at around 7am. even its raining and take motorcyle(nabasa ko eh), when I reached the administration office, anak Andy and bae Jojo was heading home to get ready for the "final Defense" and i too headed to our faculty office.. I finished my gradesheets just in time before 8am just to notice that the rain hasn't stop, and researchers are not yet around. so... tick tack tick tack... iencoded the grading sheet for final defend the bSIT way... then one by one researchers comes, first was andy, then Evangeline, realizing they aren't done printing yet, aside fromvange who waits for her partner's arrival..... so waiting time....
due to public demand of my existence, i have to pass something on roxas city, shouldn't be pass on to someone coz it was scheduled. so i ask mam sha, and the rest of panel that i'll be going and we will resume at 1pm. 
then i go and waited for a van. for almost 20 mins of waiting finally I was in a public utility van. along magsaysay, my bestfriend's mom also takes the PUV, since i am very close to her i just bursted out "baw tita, upod naman kita? Damu gd kita guro estoryahan ay". she replied, "ay abaw! an, ara ikaw dra? daw amu gd guro." and we both laugh. she seat beside me and our conversation lasted in roxas city with the topic: his nephew, our student. :) but indeed GOD is good coz actually Tita bes pay my fare.. Thanks Tita sa uulitin... from the van to the jeepney... huya huya man ko.. pero thanks gd ta ha... hehehe..
we parted when I go down in CapSU main where the nearest drop off to my destination:DBP 
from DBP i was ask for another xerox of my ID so i go out and look for a copier so i can xerox my ID... from there...
..........I need to photocopy my ID only one and it cost me 1peso... the funny thing is... i can't find a peso in my bag.... wala ko piso! sa kadaku daku sang bag ko ayawan ko pangita sang piso.... to the extend nga ihuhu mu na ang tanan nga unod cmu bag tungod sa piso... ng iisip na ko ang byaran ko pero 500 peso bill ang kwarta ko nga madali ibayad... sa piso gd.... ! ang tuod??? so i didn't give up.... so i finally found a peso after so many busi si sang bag ko... (huyabaW! muna ngd ko yah kayaman! hahahaa)
so finally I passed the requirements, i must go back to PILAR for the defend, and i remember my baby boy, wala sya to gatas sa balay...so i go to the grocery to buy milk and some foods for me and kids and coffee of my DEAR mother Earth. as I go out the store, i realize how unlucky i was to still not get my main goal in the city but everything lightens up coz the jeepney driver was cute... wahaha... ay! biglang naging maaliwalas yung mukha ko.... naks! ambot kung gwapo to sa basta manami iya sunggad... so that was a plus... for the day... 
I was back at pilar at 1 pm and the defense goes........ hmmmp.... it was actually your PRE ORAL DEFEND..... SEE you again on NOVEMBER 2018.... :D

ATTRACTION: Physical then Emotional????

Physical attraction,yes! comes first before anything else
I wanted to prove the world that its NOT.  that in some cases TRUE LOVE will remain.
Will I able to prove it? though I am afraid to fail. its okay because failure means learning..
learning will give me enough wisdom.
i am ready to be happy being ALONE
and I don't expect you to be around. though I was confused for the too much time and effort. 
I  just Ignore it..

There was this man who........
...who used to hang out with
he was funny, witty,creative, talented
I used to know him before
but I never even imagine myself to be so close to him.
Til' now, till he finally told me whats the real score
where i used to laugh out loud,
coz it seems that the only reason why they come to me
is to have a SCORE. literally..hmmp.
well,it is my fault if i wont believe on those LIES?
LIES that was been the reason of my broken  heart and dreams?
secret or not, it all has been the same.
it been so damn PAINFUL,i don't want to go through with it again
and with you? where I really don't know what is true and what is a lie?
because I honestly found you a LIER.
and what would it be?
what would it be with me?
what could I actually get from you?
to be honest,yeah? your handsome, talented,
and I do feel(what you have been saying) the same with you,
You make me laugh, talk to me, listen to me... but they did that before too..
That would never feed me
I was too in love before and thought that love would conquer all
I was wrong
Being in love was not that too good for me.

and I face reality and that reality was:
NO MAN WOULD DO SACRIFICES FOR A WOMAN
BECAUSE OF COWARDLINESS IS MORE STRONGER
THAN THE PULL OF A MERE FEELING OF LOVE
oh! no ITS NOT LOVE its LUST....
THAT IS MEN... the most unreliable specie on earth..

Imsoorry...